It’s Term 2.
I’ve dumped my resume around everywhere and I’ve finally started to get the calls. People want me to work! FINALLY! I start to think I’m not as useless as I thought I was. I am actually doing what I want to do!
I’m getting more calls. I’m getting called in everyday followed by my other after school job.
What do you mean I’ll get tired after a 10 hr day?! Of course I’d love to do that Monday-Friday and there is no way I’ll get burnt out. I’ll definitely be able to keep up AND knock out my assessments for my online Postgrad units. Too easy
So that has been my life for the past term and a half.
I’m tired, weary and drained. I need more energy! I need more motivation! But it all seems to disappear once my alarm goes off or I get my morning call. I find myself rushing around all day, coming to my other job with a dead face and a horrible attitude. I just want the day to be over so I can sleep. It’s affecting my other job. I’m starting to hate it! I don’t want to be the person that trudges into work every day, hating life. I actually really enjoy what I do but I just can’t seem to muster up the energy to care as much as I did before.
Does that mean I need to quit my after school job? 😦 I don’t think I’m prepared to do that. However, I do feel my time is ending soon.
On top of dealing with the daily grind, the stress of studying has definitely taken its toll. I decided to continue my studies to appear more employable. After receiving a huge set back in my last unit, I have lost all confidence to tackle my final assessments. I hear teachers tell me ‘I love learning! You can’t get into this profession if you don’t love learning! If I had time, I would go back to uni and do another course’
My feelings are the opposite. I am very very very very over studying. I have reached a point where I have put off studying anything for about a month now. I look at the work and my brain can’t even work out where to begin! Then I get lost in a whirlwind of thought of questioning whether or not I am skilled enough to do this.
School – Stress
Work – Stress
Study – more stress!
Have you ever been so stressed that you just end up sitting there, waiting for the world to go by and consume you? That is what my life seems to feel like lately.
But of course, life can’t go that way!
The title sort of tricked you into thinking I actually had advice on how to balance things and get motivation back. Alas, I don’t.
I don’t have a neat trick or cheat way to get your life on track. The only thing I can think of is to slap myself into submission.
Chuck a Shia Labeouf and ‘JUST DO IT’
Getting motivation will hopefully follow…